The thing I fear most, is losing my memories, my mind, and being forgotten. I feel fine, but something is different.
Words, names, places, and people, are disappearing. Everything is harder to find, it's slowly slipping away. I know it's a normal part of aging, but either way, it still scares the hell out of me. Words, arguments, discussions, and stories, that's who I am. Without my own history, in my own mind, I'll have nothing.
I'm frantic about getting it all down in writing and hope I don't run out of time. I feel that I've lost a lot of my "life" stories already and I don’t know where to find them.
I've always felt that you never really die until people forget about you. I'm not afraid of death, I'm really not afraid of it at all. I'm afraid that I'll be forgoten.